I published this 5 years ago (It seems like 20) but probably wrote it a few years before that. I vaguely remember sitting down at the computer feeling angry and depressed (I can’t remember why)
Friendship, pardon the word, conjuring
Visions of companionship, closeness
Bordering on the edge of marriage,
Extending the limitations of a secret alliance.
How wretched are people?
The true meaning of friendship,
A common fallacy, almost every
Friendship is flawed, scarred by the weight
Being there, through the good times,
Being there through the bad,
Sharing a multitude of likes, opinions,
A multitude of dislikes,
Smoking the last cigarette together,
Socializing together, fighting together,
Conscientiously objecting together,
Laughing, crying together.
All associated with “friendship true”,
Only half the truth.
How about hiding the truth,
Even though it may force you to take your last breath?
How about instinctively sensing when unhappiness
Is killing your friend?
How about knowing instinctively when to sit quietly and just listen.
How about knowing instinctively when to walk without words?
How about knowing instinctively when to pause the music, so your “best friend” can sing?
Even when they can’t.
How about sacrificing your moments of happiness
When it hurts you the most?
How about kicking the pebble away
So they won’t hurt the their (Soul) feet?
How about never, ever contemplating using your
Friend for your own ends?
How about coming second best,
So they can come first?
How about not measuring friendship
Or the amount of spirits drank together?
How about not pretending to be someone they want you to be?
How about pretending to be the person they ask you to be?
How about encouraging your “best friend”, even when you’ve
Given up on yourself?
How about never asking or taking, just giving?
Unrequited friendship, it’s difficult, yet easy, inconvenient, painful,
An oft-time thankless task, even though
Thanks are never sought.
True friendship means just doing, because it’s the natural thing.
True friendship is not just being there,
It’s knowing, sensing, feeling your friends pain so they know they can
Rely on you, even when you’re not there.
True friendship means whatever the situation, however difficult, whatever the outcome, it’s never a thankless task.
Of thanks are never necessary, truth
Means true friendship.